It's been some time since i posted after my accident. I decided to post again since I am at the lowest point of my life. After my accident, when things start to go back on track once again, another obstacle struck.
Two weeks ago, I had another setback. I had an minor operation on my elbow, which was due to a infected cyst, and was admitted for 3 days. For that three days, I could not sleep at all. Subsequently, even after being discharged, I get symptoms of heartburn, mood swings and insomnia. I was not able to concentrate on anything, wanting to move around every second, and i get anxious easily. The moment I feel anxious, i started feeling hot all over the body. Looking very normal physically, but mentally i am being tortured. But no one knows.
It was until previous day, that i did not even get to sleep a wink the whole night. The feeling was like i am going to faint any moment. I was tired, but the moment i drifted off to sleep, i get dreams and did jerk awake. It's really torturing me physically and mentally. No choice given, mommy brought me to the family clinic doctor and told her what's happening. Doc referred me to IMH A & E. The doc at a & e diagnosed me with mild depression and anxiety, and was given sleeping pills and anti- depressant. Without the sleeping pills, i wasn't able to sleep at all.
At this point of time, I really feel like giving up.Why does this year created so many setbacks for me?
I don't want to strain relationships, worry my parents and friends around me. I also want a simple and happy relationship, who don't? However, I have thought things through carefully, I will brace myself up once again and be a happy girl. Stop crying silently and be strong. I know it takes time, but i know i can do it.
SETBACKS WONT PULL ME DOWN, THEY ONLY MAKE ME GROW STRONGER.
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